Recently, a dear friend of mine and I were discussing the ‘R’ word. Yes, relationships. I was lamenting my woes when suddenly said friend asked “Well, what do you want out of your relationships?” I answered, but the question gave me pause. I’ve been thinking about it all day. What do I want?

I asked myself this somewhat difficult question: in a perfect world, what kind of relationships do you want? You may notice that I say relationships with an ‘s’. This is the first part of my answer to my question. I want more than one. I’ve always wanted more than one. I have a difficult time understanding and practicing monogamy. I have known for a very long time that I am Polyamourous. I am very comfortable with this; however, few of my partners are as comfortable with it as I am. Many of them say they are fine, but then exhibit behavior that makes it clear to me they are not. It’s not that I lie to them and tell them I am completely monogamous. I don’t think I’ve ever made that mistake. I am as honest with them as I can be, usually just laying it flat out on the table what my preferences are.

I like men and women. I am non-monogamous. It’s that simple.

So… in a perfect (yet metaphoric) world, this is what I want:

I want to be perfume.

Right. Perfume.

I want a woman to pick me up, put me on and make her feel beautiful and special as all women are, truly. I want to boost her confidence in her own beauty and give her the swagger she deserves. I want her to pass by her friends and have them say “you seem so happy/beautiful/sexy/wonderful! And, what is that fantastic fragrance?” I then want her to take me out of her purse and introduce me to all her friends. One (or more) of her friends will want to borrow me and she will lend me, happy to make her friends feel just as good as she does when covered in me. I want this go on and on and on.

Women don’t get jealous if another woman uses her perfume (I’m guessing, I don’t really know. I think it would be a very silly thing to get jealous over), mostly because it smells different on each woman due to chemistry. I am no different. I would be the perfume that never runs out. Not every woman in the world would want to wear me… and I wouldn’t necessarily want to be worn by every woman. But, when the chemistry is right… why not?

I want her to be able to try on other perfumes and wear them as long as she likes. I don’t want to have to prove myself as being more worthy than all the other perfume on her counter. Each of us makes her feel special in a different way or is better for different occasions. While Grey makes her feel one way, Alex makes her feel another way.

I also want her to be alright with her brother using me as well. I am a unisex scent after all.

I don’t know if I’m making sense. It makes sense to me; however, it did come out of my brain. What are your thoughts?

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